You will be ridiculed for trying to fit in and punished for not conforming.
Though I would like to believe I strike a fine opposition to the status quo; a closer look shows I only do enough to stay under the radar. That defining moment has yet to be discovered. Each day is in preparation for that thing, that situation where I'll be me and make a recognizable difference.
As I learn and grow, I'm fairly sure a "mid-life crisis" is simply a matter of perspective. If crisis is the opinion of the mid-lifer, it's highly likely they fear this new stage of "adulting". Growing beyond raising children, running a busy household and putting concern for others at the forefront can be intimidating. I see it for the opportunity it presents for self evaluation and potential reinvention. I'm still a Mother and Partner, but I see myself. An ideal time to broaden the definition of ME.
Now, should said crisis be determined by an observer, well.. Many possibilities as to why they think so. Presently I'm confident that those who see crisis fear growth. Or they may not recognize the newfound sense of freedom many mid-lifers experience. I share my knowledge of the experience thus far. It's up to them whether they will be participants or commentators.
As of this writing I'm confident this next chapter holds immense promise. I'm really just becoming an adult and I'm loving it. 😳
As the days march on I continue to learn about myself. Though I crave freedom from responsibilities, I hesitate to act without caution. Never followed the latest trend simply because. Everyone else can be frivolous and prosperous. Why not me too? To maintain character, yet know some semblance of what I see I'll plan. Phase in the Happy commenced 2018. There have been bumps along the way. Nothing proven to be insurmountable to date. I shall persists.
To keep to my original intention. I will share my daily growth musings; something new learned, tried or proposed. How Phase in the Happy (PitH) is progressing.
10/7 PitH - Parenting unruly teenager w/limited physical contact. - Growth
Teen experiencing basic punishment for staying out on school night w/added bonus of leaving for school @ 6a each morning. Arrival 45mins prior to start of schoolday Courtesy of said spectacular parent.
This time of the year we always hear what everyone else thinks it means. What does it mean to you?
I started this post during the 2014 Holiday Season. Exactly a week before my fiancè was rushed to the emergency room with an unidentified ailment. I missed Christmas with my children because I knew it was more important to oversee their father's well-being and make sure they would not miss growing up with their father.
I can't say what I had in mind when I started this post in 2014, but I can say with surety that EVERYDAY means the world to me. I am greatful for every minute I have with my family. To spend your life with those you Love and receiving their Love in return is phenomenal. Do not take for granted that random hug or not so funny joke. Anytime I feel a bout of melancholy these things get me through the day.
Though it is still a work in progress, I am diligently working to prolong those family moments because I want my memories to greatly outweigh any regrets. And if it is possible I want these memories to remind me that I have no regrets.
