Boredom

 Growth is boring. Being episodic back on 11-28-2021.

I can say not much has changed since then. Growth is still boring and now I have found it to be fairly isolating too. This is one of those episodes in life where I am really just waiting to see what happens next and hope that it is better than the last episode. 

Seems I will not have a reckless irresponsible period in this life. Sky diving after 60 is still on the table however. The right now growing pains are a bit much. A real mental strain, but trusting the process does allow for quick results turnaround per accomplishment. As a member of the microwave generation (that grew up without a microwave in the home) I appreciate quick results. That whole instant gratification thing. 

As I recall the first step in my growth process was to stop lying. Now I am not a clergyman, nor was I a con-man before. But twisting a tale to watch a person squirm was a fun pastime of mine. For over a decade I have resisted the urge to even lie by omission. That is growth. As a most pleasant side effect I no longer have to second guess a persons motives out of distrust of my own. It was also interesting to see how many people were agitated by my loud profession of "I don't lie no more". Crazy what irritates people, huh.

My experience so far is that growth can be quite boring, but comes with none of the regret that typically accompanies a wild time only the lovely fruits of wisdom.